I've been thinking and thinking and wasting my time thinking of something that apparently I should stop thinking about it . I'm giving up my life , I don't seem to have any chance of having a bright future like others idk why , that's why I said I'm thinking of something i should have stop thinking about it because it's nonsense . I don't feel like studying , I don't feel like doing anything for the sake of my future because there I am thinking I won't have a bright future like others . I will forever stuck in this country and dreaming about further my studies in overseas ( Literally I mean studying in Japan ) . By Giving up , its not like I stop studying , I still am just not putting a lot of effort I supposed , I need someone to tell me the right thing to do , like telling me " GO AND STUDY BITCH " . Well I need that , seriously . Kbye .